Random and then some

What is it that's made me feel so disconnected lately?  To an almost apathetic degree?  I should, if anything, be even more buoyant than I've been for these last two years - prepping to move in October; a new town; new music on the horizon; my writing seems to improve and the audience is expanding.  I have shows to see; experiences to be had and yet...  nothing.  Flat-lining.  Is it the daily grey skies sucking the life out of me and making me so blank?

I don't know why but I'm NOT letting it deter me, that's for sure.  Someone told me Mercury Retrograde is on the bubble, but I'm not buying.  That would be an easy excuse to slide and I'm in no mood to let anything control me since I'm the one holding the reins.  I have a lot of work - in all good ways - ahead of me in the next few weeks with shows, movie premieres, interviews and the like.  Something not tangible is in no way going to block my path.

I can say - and this may make me sound unsympathetic - that the now oft-repeated moaning and childish whining of friends has been grinding on my soul.  For several people, who I've begun moving away from, it's a never-ending barrage of self-centered "woe is me" and all I can offer is simply "if you don't like where you're at, change it".  What more can you say?  It's a broken record and at what point do you have to turn a deaf ear for your own sake?  It drags you down as well, inevitably.  Rather than get into confrontation, I just maintain silence.  It becomes tedious when an adult will not accept accountability for any of their actions.  Excuses just don't fly.

At least I have this forum to air my thoughts and clear out the clutter so I can shake it all off and keep going!