Steps away now...
Thirteen days and counting until spring is official. The sun is shining through my window and it negates any need for lights. The transition to daylight savings time was not even noticed - I slept soundly and solidly last night. For all of the tensions and discomforts I've had recently, at the moment, I'm calm. I did a lot of reading this weekend, having caught up (finally!) with all the magazines I get, especially the literary ones; I even re-found my footing and did my first album review in a while. That was nice, as the music is good and I know what I'm writing about is true/accurate. This will go live tomorrow morning - it's oddly exciting again.
These last few weeks have been tougher; certainly more difficult than it's been for a while, including after the medical procedure. All of my orbits and atmospheres have been heavy and uncomfortable. I feel a sense of uncertainty that I refuse to let turn into outright dread; hence, joy of a weekend like the one that just passed. Did nothing to make myself anxious, uptight, nervous, projecting, etc. Every time I felt a twinge of uneasiness, I'd think of something else; divert my attentions. Subsequently, I'm in an okay mindspace today.
So much so that I did decide that this coming weekend, I would finally get one of the guitars - probably the Taylor - out and start to revisit things. Refamiliarize myself with the songs I haven't touched in years now. I don't know what it may mean - maybe nothing at all - but I think it's because I just want to do it. No other motive or reason really necessary.
It doesn't hurt that a bad hockey season is giving way to the start of another baseball season - which firmly says "warmer weather is here". Thus, I'm trying to gather all the positives to make them a good buffer in case of interference.