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Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Times like these, you learn to live again

It's amazing how time can slowly change your ways and make you look at things that can't be seen... And here I am, a full year after being merely an observer to my own existence, which has left me completely changed and I do believe for the better. Not just as a person, but as a musician. And it shows tremendously. Another three new songs--"Walk It Home", "Neverlasting" and "Chance" again visit the idea that there are no limits now to what I may be able to do as a songwriter. As a 46 year old, you've had experiences that you're no longer feeling so possessive about--universal themes are universal themes. And certainly, my own discovery of real love, real pain and loss and re-evaluation are nothing new--they're just from my perspective and my outlet in dealing with these elements of life is to write songs. It's what I do; it's what I had always done and since the onslaught of September, I will continue to do so without even questioning why I do it. Never again will I relinquish my reins.

There's a lyric I'd begun last August, "She Is The Light". I abandoned it for obvious reasons. But it speaks volumes when you stop, look from a distance and remember that it's just a lyric waiting to be sung and nothing more. What the listener hears or feels is all that matters. So while I'm able to now push out the new songs, so too, can I see the validity in revisiting the past, albeit a year behind.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

A year by numbers

I feel a sense of relief that I've reached a year; from the death of my father, to the unraveling of my marriage colliding with my subsequent emotional upheaval. Relief and a gladness of anti-climax that the lean period is over and means nothing now. May has always been my favorite month and will remain so--that some very sad things began to happen last May is just part of life. Here I am--physically and mentally stronger and healthier than ever; spiritually rejuvenated and creatively flowing to heights I'd never thought I was capable of.

So by virtue of all this, I am about to embark on the next round of new songs to be demo'd; I don't know what will happen as far as a Punch Line reunion, but if we want it, it'll happen. No one is under any pressure, etc. Nothing but good things, as far as I'm concerned.

File the last 12 months of postings as a documented bump in the road.