Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Only a memory no. 2

It was 31 years ago tonight that I met someone.  She changed my life completely.  From the moment that we looked in one another's eyes, we spent the next 7.5 years together.  She left me 23 years ago and departed from this world two years ago.  But this date is etched in my mind and heart until my time's up.  We were very happy for a long time and those are the times I choose to think about.

I miss those two people.  They were nice; they were full of hope and drive and life.  She certainly filled me with hope, drive and life.  And she'll forever be part of me.

Thursday, May 04, 2017

The hope for May

As I've said for years, including on this blog, May has always been my favorite month.  There's just something so right about it; the warmth, the smell of the newly blossomed trees and flowers and fresh-cut grass - the promise of new things.

After the sadness and darkness that surrounded me for the last few months, I have glimmers of hope.  It's hard to keep an optimistic eye opened, but that's what I'm trying to do.  Moving forward - looking at the light and at different avenues to walk down.  Belief is everything - in myself, a higher being - whatever it is that sustains you.  And I do have some measure of belief in both myself and the highter powers.  Yes, I have my moments of despair and fear, etc. but I let them wash over me and pass - I don't hold on to them or let them control or cripple me.  Even when I feel it coming on, I pivot and find a comforting and hope-colored thought to push back.

And with the sun and warmth and soothing winds of the last few days to start this beautiful month, I have to take it and run with it.