Trying to stay the course

It hasn't been an easy month at this new job; it seems to be the kind of thing that seeps into your bloodstream, preoccupies your weekend and causes sleepless (or at the very least, non-restful) nights.  I'm trying to find ways to not let it affect me for the long-term:  immediately switching my mind out of work mode when I leave the office; creative visualization and meditative thinking about things that give me joy and upcoming events that I know will make me smile and relax (like our vacation this August).  

I was saying to someone earlier that if I were younger, perhaps it would be easier to cope with; perhaps I could let it all run off my back (like I used to do).  But the truth is, as you get older, it's harder.  You're in a much more tenuous position where you feel like you're constantly under the microscope.  I do know - SADLY - that it isn't just me, either.  And I don't mean my co-workers, although it's evident they have a breaking point; everyone I know has been working at jobs that just leave them drained and (frankly) unhappy.

While I find myself fortunate that being an "administrative professional" does still have some merit, to be able to continue living in New York on barely sustainable salaries makes things uncomfortable.  Certainly, my last job paid me enough to pay the rent and cover the basics, but I had to take money from savings to manage some unexpected/unwanted bills.  This job may help in putting the money back in the bank and eliminate the credit card balances, but is it worth the possible (genuine) health risks?  

Answer:  I've already updated my resume and am still answering ads on LinkedIn and Indeed, with the hope that I'll catch that break I've needed for so long.  Until that time, I just have to keep focused on getting the job done and tuning out when the work day is over.